A blog pretty much about everything:) Married life, family, and now my pregnancy journal:P

Tuesday, November 22, 2011


I know some ladies are anti hairbows, headbands, the color pink, and tutus... WELL haha that is not me! Madilyn has all of these things and she is so stinking adorable. I taght myself how to make tutus this last weekend and I am addicted now! I have made 2 for Madilyn, one for her 9 month cousin, and one for my friends baby that is due in Jan. Here are some pictures!

Madilyn is doing good. Still breastfeeding and pumping for her. At her 10 week doc appt she was 23 inches long and 13lbs and 4oz. Doctor said she was in the 90th percentile and that we needed to try to cut back on her feedings. We are doing are best, but I am breastfeeding more now unstead of EP so its hard to know how much she is getting. She still wakes 1-2 times in the middle of the night which sucks but we are working on that also lol I am looking forward to her first thanksgiving!

What you looking at?!?

And on a side note....I have about 4 more pounds to go to get to pp weight and 11 to get to the weight I was when I got married 14 months ago...Hopefully the holidays dont ruin that lol

And to leave you on a big smiley note....

Wednesday, November 2, 2011


Halloween was fun. Madilyn was the cutest pumpkin ever:) My mom, Madilyn, and I took my sister trick or treating. She carried two bags because my mom insisted on getting Madilyn some candy lol And my husband really wanted some even though I felt ridiculous trick or treating for a two month old. Oh well it was still fun. She is just getting so big. My husband always says each time he picks her up its like she has grown so much more from the last time.

It has started to get cooler here thank goodness! For a couple days our high was low 70's which meant the mornings were cold out. Now its back to a high of low 80's again which sucks. But I did get to dress Maddy in some warm cloths for a day or two:)

Tomorrow is my birthday and I will be 26 years old. I am so thankful for my baby girl and husband! Ii will be the best birthday so far I am sure. Planning to spend the morning with baby girl and then my husband is going to watch her for the afternoon while my cousin and I hit up a couple wineries! I can't wait:) First winery visit in a long time!

And of course I leave you with a couple pics:)

She is saying man I hate this headband mom!

Soooo tired....

Friday, October 21, 2011

Work issues

So as of Monday (6 weeks pp) I have started back at work a couple hours each day. This is because my husband quit his job on the oil rig due to unsafe conditions. He has been actively looking for a job since then. Hopefully he gets somethings soon! I am only working until he starts working. I am jealous that he gets to stay home with baby girl while I have to work. Part of the reason I had to come back was because we majorly needed money. About 3 weeks before I had Madilyn my work moved my to part time. That cut my money in half. Then once I had her I found out that since I was a part time employee now that I no longer could receive short term disability. ( I had been paying for my short term the whole 4 years I have been with this company. And at the beginning of the year I even upped my plan to pay more monthly so I could get more when I went out on maternity leave. All of this for nothing. Needless to say I was extremely pissed off! But nothing I could do about it because I need the insurance coverage for my daughter. We are not sure what we are going to do about my job but I know that we can't afford for me to only work part time and pay for Madilyn to go to daycare. Hopefully Brandon gets a job soon and after the 3 month probation time we can have insurance with his company and then I may quit my job here.

There is alot more I could say about my work situation and our money problems but it could get really long lol

My best friend had her baby girl 2 days ago! And my other really good friend just found her her and her husband are expecting in June:) Lots of babies around here.

I'll leave you with some pics...

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

My life now;)

Is all about Madilyn lol I love her so much! She will be one month old tomorrow! Can't believe she is getting so big;) My husband is still working out of town one week on and one off and he misses her so much when he is gone.

When I delivered her I was at about 190lbs. Now, one month later I am at 158lbs. So I still have about 10lbs to go to get to my pre pregnancy weight. Then another 7 to get to my goal weight. We are about to start going on walks since it is just starting to get nice outside.

We are still working on sleeping at night. She goes about 3 1/2 hours without eating which isn't to bad because I get a little bit of sleep....as long as she doesn't want to stay up for an hour at a time. She is still getting breastmilk. I have been EP'ing but just recently started breastfeeding again. So I plan to do both for now. My ultimate goal would be for her to have breastmilk till she is a year old. Hopefully I can do it!

She is about to wake up so I will update again soon. Hopefully I can start updating again on a more regular schedule.

Here are some pics:)

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

My Madilyn is here! Long w/ PIP!

September 6th I was 36 weeks 4 days. I went to work like usual and within maybe 5 minutes in my office my water broke. First thought (which was only like a thought for 2 seconds) was holy crap did I just pee myself? lol But I smelt it and it had no smell so I figured it was my water breaking. Then there was no mistaking it lol It continued gushing like crazy! I managed to call my husband and he rushed up to my work to get me. I called my boss out of a meeting so she could bring me some towels and get me a wheelchair. It was kind of embaressing lol

So we get to the hospital and it was packed. I guess after holidays they get a lot of patients in. But I was ruptured so I was staying! Yay:) I was monitored in triage for awhile and checked...I was only 1 cm. Which I guess is an improvment because a couple days before at my 36 week appt I was closed.

Finally got a room and got settled it. The started me on pitocin around noon to get me into active labor. I sent my mom to my house to pack me a bag because I hadn't gotten to it yet. (was planning on doing it that week) Visitors started coming in and we just hung out for awhile. By the way sitting in a hospital bed while your water continues to gush out of you is the most uncomfortable feeling ever lol The towel they give you to sit on got changed out alot! That was one thing I didn't expect, the continuous gushing.

About 4:30 the contractions were getting stronger but still bearable. I was checked and still only a 1, maybe a 1 1/2. She offered me the epidural and after some discussion I took it. Getting the epi was always in my plan. Never considered not getting it lol She reasured me that the epi would last my whole labor and it could be topped off if needed later. I was anxious about getting it so early but I figured why sit here in pain and know I have so much further to go. The epi hurt. It seriously brought tears to my eyes and luckily it was over quickly.

I'm guessing it was around 7pm that I was checked again and I was a 3-4. okay progress. I don't remember the effacment...Still feeling good. Had to lay on my left side at times because the epi didn't take as well on that side. About an hour later I felt like the epidural was wearing off. The contractions were getting so much worse and I wasn't wanting to talk during them and felt the need to hold my stomach because it made me feel like it helped lol I don't think it did though. So the guy came and topped me off. My friends who were in the room said he was being rude but I wasn't paying any attention to what he was saying to me. When he was done he told me to sit back but I was haing a contraction and couldn't move just yet. He told me again and I guess I kinda yelled at him that I heard him lol I was told later that they were glad I put him in his place since he was being an asshole lol:) Another anesthesiologist came by about 5-10 minutes later I guess to make sure that I had gotten topped off. I told him it wasn't helping. Evidently the little refill box that is attached to my button was empty so he refilled it for me and was much nicer.

Being topped off did nothing. It was official, my epi had worn off. Yay it sucked lol The pain was so bad and I wasn't paying attention to anybody and definetely wasn't talking to anybody lol I started throwing up at this point which I was hoping was transition. So the nurse came in and checked me ( its around 9:30 pm now). She said I was about a 6-7 and told me I was making good 1cm per hour progess. She told me another 3 hours or so to go. My first thought was OH my god, Kill me now! Seriously there was no way I could do that for 3 more hours. My mom seemed to think she would be here sooner though. About 20 minutes later I felt pressure. I told my husband to get the nurse. He went to get her and she wasked what I wanted. lol He was like I don't know go ask her. When she got in I was having a contraction so at first all I could do was just hold up my pointer finger indicating her to hold on because I coulnd't answer her through this pain. I was finally able to tell her I felt pressure and she checked me and I was complete! Yay!

A doctor that was on call came in right then to check on my and found out I was ready to go so we got started. (She wasn't my doctor, but I liked her so much, just as much as my reg doc) I started pushing and they said I was pushing really good. By the way it was just the nurses, doc and my husband in the room. I could feel her coming down more and the pressure was unbelievable! My husband got a little woozy and felt like he was going to throw up so had to sit down for a minute. That happend to be the minute she was born lol Feeling her coming out was weird, cool, and such a relief! Once they put her on my chest I was already crying and couldn't believe she was here. I pushed for all of 20-30 minutes. I think as a first time mom my labor and delivery went pretty quickly. She was 8lbs 6oz and 19 inches long. Born at 11pm.

My recovery has been pretty good. I actually figured that I would be in more pain then I was. Obviously the first day was the hardest but definetely manageable. I have lost about 15lbs so far. Figured I would lost more the first week but any loss is a good one! So 25 more lbs to lose to get back to pre baby weight then another 7 to lost to get to goal weight. Breastfeeding has been a challenge. She took to the boob for maybe the first day and a half. Then it started going bad. She just wouldn't stay awake to latch on and suck. I had the nurses and a lactation consultant try and help but Madilyn had no interest in it at all. Day 2 I was supposed to be released from the hospital but unless we could get her to eat then she would be staying. She did end up taking a bottle of formula so that was our ticket home! I ended up having to supplement with formula for 2 days until my milk came in. Her pedi suggested I get a herbel pill to help with my milk supply and boy did it help! I fill like I am producing alot! I get about 4-6 ounces at each pumping session. And there is already about 25 oz in the freezer at only one week old. I think we will just continue with pumping as opposed to breastfeeding. If she wants to take the boob that that is great. I do try every now and then but knowing exactly how much she is getting from the bottle is a great feeling. I see it as she is still gettting my milk and I didn't give up and just stay with formula so that makes me feel better.

She is one week old today and either I am getting used to only 4 hours of sleep at night or I got a little more last night. NOt sure lol but I understand sleep deprivation now;)

Here is some pics of our beautiful little girl, she looks just like her daddy! I looked at some of his baby pics and they looked almost identical!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

My big girl

So we had our 2nd growth ultrasound yesterday. Last time we went she was measuring about 4 lbs and was 4 weeks ahead. That was at 28 1/2 weeks. Yesterday I was 35 weeks, 5 days. She is now measuring 5-6 weeks ahead and is estimated at 9 pounds 1 oz! As soon as the tech told me that I said "WHAT?!?" and my husband just burst out laughing lol I was seriously in shock. I was expecting her to tell me like 7 1/2 pounds. I know an ultrasound can be off but seriously, she has been measuring ahead for every US we have done and I still think she is a big girl. I also know when I conceived so there is no way that date is off. I have an appt today to see if I am dilated any, but I won't see my reg doc until next week to see what she has to say about my big Maddy. Good thing I only have one pack of newborn diapers lol Looks like I will be returning those probably....and maybe a pack of size 1's since I have so many. I'll just have to wait and see what happens:)

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Quick Pic...

35 Weeks 4 days...I feel bigger!
growth ultrasound tomorrow and 36 week appt on thursday with first internal! I will report back:)

Friday, August 12, 2011

33 Weeks!

33 Weeks today:)


So the scale says that I have gained 40 lbs as of today. I am hoping to only gain another 5lbs by the end of this pregnancy so we will see....Got 7 Weeks left.

Madilyn is rolling and moving around alot in there and I love it!

And this should probably be a whole other post but I'll say it quickly here. I was put on part time at work yesterday. It sucks major ass. I am sure some of my ttgp girls remember months ago when my job gave me the choice of taking over another department or going part time. I chose 2 departments with no extra pay and that sucked! But they eventually highered a guy to do that part time after about 5 months of me doing it. Now census us low again and I was given no choice. Part time for me. I just lost half of my yearly income. I am bummed. They only thing I can do is look at it as a blessing in disguise because I am due in 7 weeks and now I can take it a little easier because I will be only working 24 hours a week as opposed to 40. If they don't offer me a full time position again when I come back from maternity leave then I will probably start looking for another job then. They knew I couldn't do anything about it now. I am 7 1/2 months pregnant and I need my insurance....Just got to stick it out. I'll update on all this crap later. Peace out.

Friday, July 29, 2011

Madilyn's nursery:)

Is finished! Minus a couple things to do here and there it is done...
Her closet:) This isn't even all her clothes! She has two drawers full of onesies and little matching pants. Plus on the shelf in her closet is a bag of clothes size 12 month and up.

Her organizer in her closet. Hair stuff, socks/leg warmers, hats, and shoes!

Her cubby bookshelf that has her books in it, toys, bibs (for now), more toys lol and stuffed animals. Still need to clean off the top of the shelf.

This picture and homemade princess crown is right above her cubby shelf.

Her swing will eventually go downstairs once she is here and will probably just leave her stroller there, idk yet. Yes there is a tv in her room and cable is hooked up! If you are going to judge me on that then leave my freaking blog because I am tired of people being Judgy McJudgerson! This was the spare bedroom before it was her room and we already had tv and cable connection in there so we kept it. The tv was given to us free from my parents.

Ive already posted her wall quote in a previous post about DIY stuff...
So thats pretty much her room in a nutshell and I love it:) Can't wait to sit in that chair and nurse her:) Now all we need is her lol 9 more weeks.