A blog pretty much about everything:) Married life, family, and now my pregnancy journal:P

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Wow, this is hard.

The no eating fast food thing! It is lunch time here and I already ate a sandwich. I am not hungry, but not full if that makes any since. I really really want to go to taco bell and pick up a couple chili cheese burritos! Even writing that makes my mouth water lol I never go a week w/o some sort of fast food. The past couple months it has acutally been 2 or 3 times a week. I got as far as to get my purse and see if I had money...I did. So I put the money back and came straight to the computer to right this blog. I know if I want to get to my goal I have to go through this test to see if I can go without fast food. Today is my 5th day of no fast food and I hope I can keep it up. I do work at the mall tonight so there is temptation there too. Stay strong...

I do admit that I had a glass of wine last night. BUT, it was only one glass and it was cabarnet which had less then 100 calories in it. My favorite type of wine is moscato and about 2x as many calories. The only reason I had a glass was because it was left in the fridge from a bottle I got for Christmas. As long as I have wine in the house I can't not have a glass, its like fattening food. And after that glass I soooo wanted to go the store and by another bottle (but of moscato) so I could have another glass. But I didn't:)

I feel like some sort of an addict trying to stay away from food and wine. I always wonder why I can't be one of those people who eat whatever the hell they want and never gain any weight. I used to be like that in high school. I always ate out, and my lunch was usually like 4 cookies!(our cafeteria made the best cookes)Plus I would always eat like 1 or 2 chocolate bars a day. I have been worried about my weight since I was 14. I feel like that is way to young to start an obsession with food. But I guess thats life. I just don't want to gain all my weight back and have to start all over again.

Writing this post has actually calmed me down I guess you could say...I will not be running out to buy the mentioned food earlier in post lol

On a plus note (I know it isn't weigh in day so don't hold me to this weight) the scale this morning was a little more favorable after eating good for a couple days
:) 145.2 I hope tomorrow night for the big new years eve party doesn't screw me up to much.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

All about weight loss


Hello! Do you know me? If you don't, you should.

I am ONE POUND OF FAT, and I am the happiest pound of FAT that you would ever want to meet!

Want to know why? It's because no one ever wants to lose me! After all, I am only ONE POUND OF FAT. Just ONE POUND.

Everyone wants to lose 3 or 5 or 15 pounds, but never ONLY one. So, I just stick around and happily keep you.
Then I am free to add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem to notice... That is, until I have grown to 10, 20 or even 30 pounds in weight... YES... it is fun being ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT... left to do just as I please.

So, when you weigh in, go ahead... just keep on saying, "Oh I only lost one pound." (As if that is so terrible.)
For you see, if you do this, you will encourage others to hang around me because they will think that I am not worth losing.

And I LOVE being around you... your arms, your legs, your chin, your hips, and every other part of you. HAPPY DAYS!

After all, I am ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT!!!

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Just a little back story...I was always very skinny in high school (although at that age of course I thought I was fat ugh). First year of college I did pretty good, no freshman 15. Then my 2nd year I moved to Houston to live on my own and started the radiology program which was 2 years. By the time I graduated the program I was at 170lbs, which on me looked huge and it was the biggest I had ever been. I was busting out of my size 10's:( I started eating better and during this time my bf (now husband) and I bought a house north of Houston. Within a couple months I was down to 148 thinking I looked all fly and shiit lol I felt comfortable so I stopped trying and the weight came back on.
Can't believe I'm posting this picture ugh!

For September of that year my DH gave me a ring (just a ring, no other purpose lol). And maybe a month or two later I woke up in the middle of the night with my finger hurting. I guess your fingers swell when you sleep, but I couldn't get that sucker off! I tried and tried and it wouldn't budge. So I was crying and went and woke up DH (like 1am lol he thought something was seriously wrong)after he realized I wasn't dyeing he helped me try to get the ring off. Not working....We ended up cutting my ring off that night and I fell asleep crying because my thought was I was so fat i just ruined my ring.
So when I woke up the next morning I weighed myself (163) and started eating better that day and working out that night when I got off work. My ring was like the trigger that set me off and I wanted to feel good about myself again. I signed up for the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer which is a 2 day 39 mile walk. I trained every day and when april rolled around I was at 140 and felt great. After the Avon walk I stopped walking though. I was sooooooo tired of walking lol for 3 months that was my life. Go to work and then go home and walk. My saturday and sundays were waking up and walking 10+ miles outside. I still wanted to be at my goal weight though which was 135. The closest I ever got was 137 lol But all in all I lost 30 pounds and tons and tons of inches:)

I have maintained 140lbs for about 2 years until a couple months ago. About a month or two before my wedding I started packing on the pounds. Things that have contributed to the weight gain: Going off birth control, working a 2nd job that is in the mall by the food court, and drinking wine. I have gone up a pant size since the wedding 3 months ago.

I would like to be at 140lbs again or even better my goal weight of 135 before I get pregnant. I do have a membership to 24 hour fitness but I think I am going to cancel it. I know that sounds backwards trying to lose weight and all lol but I work 2 jobs and put in 60-70 hours a week. I leave at 6:30am and don't get home till after 9 at night. And I plan to keept this up to try and get some debt paid off before I get pregnant. Once I do get pregnant I want to cut back alot of work hours, it would be awesome if I only worked my full time job of 40 hours a week and cut the mall job our completely. So I the only thing I can do right now is cut back on what I eat. I am going to try and not eat any fast food or mall food! This is going to be very hard, but I am also going to try and not have any wine (of course I will drink and eat alot new years eve, but I will try to do good the days leading up to it so I won't feel to guilty). I really think if I can actually pull off no fast food or wine drinking that I can lose a couple pounds.
12/28/2010-current weight 146.6
Goal weight-135 (11.6 pounds to lose)
I am hoping this blog can keep me on track since I know there are a couple people actually reading it lol Each Wednesday I will update my weight and how my week went with food/wine.

Monday, December 27, 2010

My very cold Christmas:)

Christmas was awesome! We got to spend time with our familys and even got some pretty great gifts!

Christmas eve we spent the evening with his mom in Houston. It was alright....We were expecting it to be a Christmas eve dinner w/ her side of the family. Nope, it was just them and her husbands side of the family. We don't really care for her husband, although we tolerate him. At times I honestly thinks he hates us because we are apart of her old life. Not really sure what his freaking deal is. At our wedding a couple months ago he only came in the reception to hand Brandon some money as our gift. The rest of the reception he stood outside by his car...the whole time. But her husbands mother is even worse! She speaks english and spanish (I ONLY speak english)but she insisted on speaking to me in spanish. I'm like what?!? Sorry I don't know what the hell you are saying lady!
her: "It must really be awful only knowing one langauge huh?"
me: ....uh no not really, I seem to get by just fine.
her: Well you are just a dumb idiot aren't you? ( lol okay she didn't actually say that but I am sure she was thinking it)
Later she tried feeding me this plant thing on a spoon and gave me such a bitchy look when I didn't want to try it. Sorry lady, I am not good at eating new foods. Hell, it took Brandon about 9 years just to get me to eat ribs! (I'm not a big meat eater) Anyways, we didn't get out of there till about 10pm. It was exhausting becasuse we still had an hour drive to get to my parents house.
My sister in law and I:) Love her so much!

Brandon, his mom, and I

Every Christmas eve we stay the night at my parents house so we can open up presents in the morning together. I like to see my sister open all her gifts, especially since this is probably the last year she will believe in Santa.
My siser and I :)

So our morning started at 6:30 because Santa had came:) I gave Brandon his present which was tickets to the Texans game next week:) And he gave me a gorgeous watch! I told him I wanted a big blingy pink watch and he didn't disappoint! My parents got me a pink peacoat, a pair of ugg boots and harley davidson winter boots. Plus a TON of I Love Lucy stuff. Anybody who knows me, knows I am a HUGE Lucille Ball fan and collect anything that has to do with her. I also got the other bottle of I love Lucy wine that I have been wanting. (Won't drink it, just for looks)

We spent the morning at my parents. I watched A christmas story after breakfast because I had been working so much this past month I hadn't had a chance to watch it or any Christmas movies:( Then we Went to his dad's house, then my grammy and grampys, then to a friend of the family, and then finally to his memaws house! Very loooooong day. Hopefully when we have kids we can figure out a way to not do a million peoples houses.

We got home Christmas night to a nice surprise....not. Our heat had gone out, and our house was 56 degrees inside. Couldn't get it to work so loaded up the blankets on the bed,put a sweater on Auto, started a fire and turned on the space heater. Woke up to it being 52 in the house. brrrrrrrrr. Tried to fix it all day yesterday and now we think we know what it is. He is gonna try to fix it again today after work. This morning it was 56 in the house when I had to get up. It is so hard to get out of bed (and out from 6 covers) when it is that cold walking around your house! I hope we get it fixed.
Here is my Auto all warm:)

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

It's my blog and I can be an AW if I want to!

So I started cycle #5 yesterday. Yeah it sucks but life goes on. Honestly, as soon as I saw af I almost had tears in my eyes. It's crazy how actually knowing this cycle is for sure over can automatically bring a person down. But I fought the tears back because it was time for me to head to my 2nd job and I didn't have time to feel sorry for myself. I feel like I am taking it better then last month though. So tonight my friend and I are going to do my cd1 ritual:) Pedicures and wine lol It's is the best part of cd1! This next month I am going to try some new things and switch some stuff up. This was another 10 day lp:( I think the short lp's I have had suck just as much as starting a new cycle. Ane what makes me really really feel like a horrible jerk is when I am on cd1 or 2 and I notice on ttgp board like 5 bfp's. I am truly happy for them (the ones I know lol, sorry but the drive bys I could really care less about)but, it makes me want to cry because it wasn't me announcing my bfp. I never feel like this during the 2ww, only right after af gets here and that feeling only lasts for like 3 days. It's weird, because it's like I am okay with starting a new cycle, but the bfp announcements kind of bring me down those first couple days. I know, lol I am a wierd cookie.

New things I plan to try:
1:Cut back majorly on my wine drinking:( I am going to try and limit it to cd1 and when I am with my friend who lives in Austin (which is usually once a month)Plus hopefully this will help me lose some weight that I have gained! Thats a whole different post though lol
2:I already started this last cycle, but I will continue to not drink energy drinks. I used to drink 1 a day! Now it is more like 3 a month:) Very proud for that victory!
3:Instead of B6 I am going to take a B multi vitamin duing my cyle.
4: I am also going to do red raspberry and baby asprin during my cycle.
5: From af to O I will give EPO a try. (does anybody know if this comes in a pill form?)
So, I will see how it goes. Cycle #5 will lead to EDD of early October.

But on the bright side I can donate blood today! Every couple of months I coordinate a blood drive here at my work. I love to donate blood/plasma, whatever they need. Does that make me weird? lol I try to make a big thing about it here at work. I put up balloons and send out emails trying to get people to sign up. I figure somebody has to put these things together or nobody would. (On top of my actual job here at the hospital I am also in charge of the Employee Activity Committee).

I finally put my wedding album together this last weekend and decided to share some more picutres on here:)

Leaving at the end of the night!

First Dance

My handsome husband:)

My shoes and jewelry

My roses w/ our gorgeous rings;)

My sister, brother, and I:)

Monday, December 20, 2010

A new week...

Last week dragged on forever! I worked both jobs and put in a total of 70 hours! Exhausting!! Yesterday was my first day off in awhile and I got alot done:) All the laundry clean and all the presents got wrapped. Also made chocolate cake balls for my work Christmas party on Wednesday and made Brandon some chocolate chip cupcakes for his brithday today. Today he is 25:) I am one month older then him and he doesn't let me forget it lol

So I made the cupcakes and left them in the kitchen waiting for the oven to heat up before I put them in. When I come back my 100 pound rottweiler had jumped up on the counter and ate two raw cupcakes! (very chocolate cupcakes). So he got a spanking and was called a "bad dog" and thought that was the end of it.....(He NEVER jumps on the counter to eat any food that is up there)So when the cupcakes are done we sit them out on the counter to cool off. I ice them and come back about 5 minutes later and the little jerk jumped up and ate 2 more!!! I told DH he was trying to kill himself obvioulsy. For that one he got sent to the backyard because he was in trouble(okay he only stayed out for like 10 minutes because he looked so sad lol). After that I learned my lesson and put the cupcakes up in the microwave so he couldn't get to them! And right when I layed down to go to bed I heard him peeing on my dining room floor! Seriously!?! ugh! He got another whooping and was sent to sleep in the kitchen for the rest of the night. He hasn't peed in the house in sooooo long! Maybe 3 times in the last 3 months. (And I blamed the first couple of times on my cat which I felt bad about when I saw Auto doing it)Here is my little monster:

And just because I love my cats:) Here they are...

So, on the ttc note I am about 90% sure I am starting cycle 5 today or tomorrow. I really really hope it is not today because it is DH's birthday and I don't want to be upset about cd1 on his birthday! And that would mean another 9day lp for me:( At least if I get af tomorrow it would be a 10 day lp. My temp dropped lower then it ever has in the "2ww". Allthough it is never a full 2 weeks for me. More like 9-11 days lol Oh well, this just wasn't my cycle. I can donate blood this week like I had planned and I don't have to be sneaky about not drinking alcohol on new years eve. Got to look on the bright side I guess.
And since today is my husbands birthday here is a picture of us from my company Chrismas party last week:)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Co-irkers and stuff

Just a quick vent on my annoying coworker. This dude really drives me up the wall! He is the same guy that I always complain about lol Every time you pass him in the hall (which I work in a hospital so that is about 10 times a day) he always asks you "How you doing today?", "What's going on?", Having a good day?"...
every. single. time! This can get very annoying quick! And if you just say "fine" and keep walking he will respond with "Oh well I am doing fine, thanks for asking me!". Seriously dude, if I don't ask then that means I don't want to know! LOL I return the question once, not every time. I am not going to tell him if I was in a crappy mood while passing him in the hall so my answer is going to be the same each time...in fact I wouldn't tell him at all lol This same guy bangs his knuckles on my wall of my office every time he walks down my hallway. Not alot of people bother me, but this is one of those super annoying people! I don't know if I will be able to handle him when I get pregnant and not go off on him. lol

Speaking of getting pregnant, I am 6dpo today and had a slight temp drop and been having some cramping today. Kinda feels like a dull pinching feeling. Hoping that is all good symptoms lol and not just in my head. Guess just going to have to wait and see. I plan to test on Monday because that is my husbands birthday and it would be awesome to get a bfp that day:) For some reason I always feel positive about every cycle about this time...get excited thinking this could be it... If not then I will be moving on to cycle #5. I've been thinking of some reasons why this could be our cycle:)
1. I already signed up to donate blood next week expecting to get af.
2. I have tons of green tea in my fridge waiting for cycle #5.
3. Have a big New years party that I am going to and the host knows we are ttc so if I don't drink she will know;(
So these things should for sure bring a bfp for me lol
I also just got to change my short term disability to be more in my favor if I do get pregnant soon and this kicks in beginning of 2011. So if I got a bfp I wouldn't be able to call my ob till Jan. I am thinking to hard about this lol

On a happier note, I have my work Christmas party tonight and I am really looking forward to it! Already bought my drink tickets so I can have a couple glasses of wine:P So if my temp goes up in the morning I will be wondering if it went up because of the wine or because it just went up.....Not gonna stop me from having a couple glasses though lol

Thursday, December 9, 2010


So I finally got my Cheri22 prediction this morning:)I got it in at 12:05am so technically it was 2 days late.... She did email me saying it would be one day late. Regardless it was fun to read. Here it is...

They are showing me a late December connection, something around the 24th, so not sure if you can look ahead and see if this would be testing or ovulation time? This can be either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in.

When it comes to your son, hes always going to be really good about speaking his mind. Always willing to debate with people over certain "hot" topics and would consider him to be "worldly". He always pays close attention to things happening around the world, but is also going to be really into "politics". Loves to read the paper and is always good at any assignments in school that really have you pay attention to the outside world.

Hes always realistic, does not have too high of expectations from other people because he does not want to be disappointed. He is someone who is always going to feel that he needs to do better and is often trying to redo something that he is not happy with. Even if everyone is telling him its perfect, if he is not happy, he will redo it until he is.

They show him always having good balance and the need for speed. They show him very good on roller blades and is often playing roller hockey. I am seeing him playing for a more competitive division as they seem to be a bit more "tough" in this particular game than your average team and even seeing him coming home with a black eye (which you dont like, but he thinks is cool).

hes always going to be a person with an "outwards" personality. Meaning he draws attention to him and just seems to be able to relate to many things. Is always really easy going and people just know instantly that they like him. Does not matter in what context. perhaps best friends, just friends, acquaintances or girlfriend. Hes the all around nice guy who knows what he wants and goes for it.

When ti comes to career paths, they show him working in sales. I am seeing this being more of a higher accounts type and will require some travel and stressful nights while trying to close these deals with companies overseas.

When it comes to marriage I am seeing him closer to 27. They will have two boys and one girl of their own.

Pretty interesting, if I conceive this month I would actually be testing around the 24th depending on my O day. So just got to wait and see. Plus, I have felt for awhile now that our first kid would be a boy, not sure why its just a feeling.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Cart before the horse here:)

So Brandon and I decided a couple months ago that we would use cloth diapers on our future kids. I'm not trying to save the earth or anything (even though it does help!!), but seriously it will save us alot of money in the long run and a little fluff butt is so freaking cute!! :) Brandon is on board with cloth diapering too:) Mainly because his memaw cloth diapered and he is all for whatever she does! lol, If she did it then its got to be right and therefore he is willing to do it:) There are so many differnt kinds that at the beginning it can seem so overwhelming (AIO's, fitteds, prefolds, pockets, flats) I have been researching different styles for a couple months now trying to figure out what I want to use. I have pretty much narrowed it down for nb stash. Plan to use the duo wraps with kissaluvs fitteds.

It's going to cost more money up front, but in the long run it will save us more, especially reusing them for our 2nd kid.

This is a great link to show the differences in cost from different types of cloths to disposable diapers! Pretty much we are going to save about $1,200 with just one kid by using cloth...So the real savings come with using cloth for the 2nd kid too:)Sorry don't think I can make it a clicky...


Been a looooong time!

Man, I haven't updated this thing in forever! So here goes:)

The wedding went great! We had so much fun and enjoyed everything about it. My MOH was right though when she said I wouldn't get to eat a piece of cake or a plate of food lol I did have a couple bites of my cake, and a small plate that I picked on of food, but there was just so much going on that I didn't get to enjoy the food! Oh well. The honeymoon was great too! We had an awesome relaxing time. Got to take like 3 hour naps each day of the cruise which was very much needed the first couple of days from lack of sleep the couple of days up till the wedding. Just a couple pics...

I don't keep this thing updated enough, but I plan to use it as a pregnancy journal whenever I get pregnant. Not sure when that will be though lol We are in our 4th month trying, which I know in the scheme of things isn't that long so who knows...Only my ladies on ttgp and 5 friends IRL know that we are ttc. So Once I do finally get pregnant I will probably revamp this blog:) Other then that not much going on here except work work and more work. Got to pay those bills and buy Christmas presents:)